haha

life update:

• october sucked
• november sucked
• DECEMBER WOW (edit: december sucked too)
• I'm so hungry all the time
• crying into books in preparation for finals

gash

could they find your veins?

what's left of flesh is now hollow bone, messy thoughts.
life is so cruel
don't be afraid
don't
cry
it'll be over soon enough



(edit: RIP)

omg(lob)

late 1800s penguin

lawl

!!!!lyfe update:

• post-raya I get mone¥

• gr9 acts for urbanscapes this year + satellite show hah ha goodbye..... mone¥ ......

• I'm going to perth land of old ppl aka my land on monday till the 16th and then good vibes modest mouse ISAAC KISS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

• I never comb my hair yolo

• http://craftndraft.com/2013/08/09/ouch/ emotiions hahah ha hahah ha better than adam's tags I guess (btw if you're reading this I still have your socks)

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do broken minds write better? I'd rather have a knife through my head than a frog in my throat
kiss me I want to become a prince but don't
touch
me

drugs

hereditary

I have my mother's heart
although it's missing some pieces you
  see they were stolen by boys (with chapped pink lips)
 who would always know what to say.


I have my father's eyes
 although they aren't as worn I've still seen
   kings being overthrown I've easily cried
          a river and a half
 I don't want to love for fear that I might explode.

SOUTH EAST

swim good

go down the road till it turns from colour to black and

white

white

white

out doing white lines

woke up in a room with tall white walls they told me they were going to keep me here cause I've lost my

mind but was it ever really mine?

WAKE UP

doge appreciation hour

momma and I were having breakfast round Jalan Telawi the other day and we saw two men who had one puppy in a bag plus two corgis in a bABY STROLLER WITH THEIR LITTLE PAWS OUT I WAS SO EXCITED I WANTED TO
PUNCH!!! A WALL!!!!!!!!!!!


I wore doc marts to markets @ jaya one but my socks were too short so I had..... callouses on bo.....th legs and they're infected.........n yea but sacrifice for fashion right hehh heh (it hurts to bathe)
Also, Finn had the same problem in the Potluck Princess episode, so I don't feel so bad! He feels that feel that I know, I know that feel. We bonded through dimensions.

metyrapone to erase bad memories?

“Metyrapone is a drug that significantly decreases the levels of cortisol, a stress hormone that is involved in memory recall,” explained lead author Marie-France Marin, a doctoral student.

Manipulating cortisol close to the time of forming new memories can decrease the negative emotions that may be associated with them, the researchers said.

Thirty-three men participated in the study, which involved learning a story composed of neutral and negative events. Three days later, they were divided into three groups – participants in the first group received a single dose of metyrapone and a second group received a double dose. The third group received a placebo. Group participants were then asked to remember the story. Then, in fours days after the medication had cleared from the body, individual memory performance was reevaluated.

“We found that the men in the group who received two doses of metyrapone were impaired when retrieving the negative events of the story, while they showed no impairment recalling the neutral parts of the story,” Marin said. “We were surprised that the decreased memory of negative information was still present once cortisol levels had returned to normal.”

put down the razorblade baby

 place your hands in mine instead (I'll grip them tight so you know they're there)

let the bottle slip through your fingers

spilled cyanide sticky

I'd walk through shattered glass still

don't swallow the pill

Wonderland's just a myth

I'll stay up to sing so you could fall asleep.

(a title hinting profanity towards A-levels)

(a sentence about exams.)

(a sentence about blur, and how dare they come to indonesia during exam month.)

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XaaX

we would've counted the stars in the sky but
the city lights have rendered them invisible so
you & I spent the friday night counting our devils instead.

1 2 3 4567



"I can feel my soul being scorched by baphomet's flames
&thought that if I downed another Hennessy, maybe I'd be able to vomit him out
but it couldn't be that easy, could it?"


"I'm fucked up", you tell me;
I touched your arm & felt you
smile in the dark.


if heaven is up there, then this is hell on earth.

there is no food in the fridge.

my love wears metal on her lips
&her heart on her wrist, somewhere
in between the crooked scars I trace while she sleeps;
I wonder if she dreams of me?

northbound

during check-in at the lobby this guy got highly amused by how I was balancing a file of bio homework (during a holiday?) on my head while walking around effortlessly, and we talked about how I was born in the circus. I was; it was cool. I met Putt-Putt.

Skins 7 comes out July. Finals stretch out till the end of June. The stars align so perfectly for me~*~*~

EBEORIETEMETHHPITI

hobbyist codebreaker claims to have cracked the Zodiac killer's 41-year old code

FMFA 2K13 aka was I the only one who thought of this gif

for you (part two).

when I was a little girl I played with fire,
but we all know how the saying goes.

"touch is the least understood sense", said Kenneth Johnson
& I of all people, knew
how it feels to not know
the intimacy of purple silk;
nor the immediate fear of a glass shard
as I stroke it, unflinching,
thousands of receptors long burnt away,

but my fingers still tremble violently each time I trace the softness of your lips.

FOUND FUNCTIONS

“Nevertheless, the fact is that there is nothing as dreamy and poetic, nothing as radical, subversive, and psychedelic,
as mathematics. It is every bit as mind blowing as cosmology or physics… and allows more freedom of expression than poetry, art, or music…
Mathematics is the purest of the arts, as well as the most misunderstood.”

- Paul Lockhart

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 life update:

• things were a bit fucked for a while but they're alright now.
• really happy with my sem 1 results! besides chem 2 and C3 but I knew I was going to retake them even before sitting for the papers anyway.
• I'M SICK FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 5EVER. NOT FUN.
• pink hair; give it 2 me

ouch.

falling hurts when you've touched the sky &the only thing cushioning your fall is concrete; but I'll rearrange my bones &glue back the grey matter &replace lost blood with smoke
I'll ignore the fact that my heart's stuck in my throat instead of beating between my ribs
I'll keep silent
I'll keep silent

RATHER BE DEAD THAN COOL

but you're the coolest, kurt.
27 24/7, 365
I'll love you forever

mariana

the ocean blue coaxed me into an embrace,
&I was too hypnotised to notice
her slowly pulling me towards the abyss.

how she had exerted such warmth;
at first,
it frightened me

but her gentle waves rocked me down
to the comfortable sea-bed,
&so sleep, I did.

CNY2013

was SUPPOSED to go to Penang to spend time with my cousins &eat my aunt's horrible reunion dinner (pa says the soup she makes is just boiled chicken &water) but BN's whole open house featuring Psy had to ruin errthang. Thanks. THANKS

p/s no one likes Gangnam Style anymore





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EDIT:

january, in retrospect.

exams took up half of it sadly, but it's February! my everyone's favourite month. weather's wearing me out, though. too hot too hot

ssssss

the world shifted on its axis when you walked away;
  the haze of the night (&the one in my head) had left my vision distorted
I knowingly went in circles,
foolishly hoping that by doing so, it would take me across the sea.



(I've learned to adapt, though, for even when the world revolves anew
 the sun still rises &sets so familiar.)

BR3AK

~*~*~*3 WEEKS OF FREEDOM*~*~*~

(not gonna make a to-do since I never stick to them.)

woop woop

bug your mom at work day.

Spent eight hours in Publika today, alternating between wandering aimlessly alone, getting hand cramps from sets of Chemistry past years and drinking lots of coffee.

vibrantly coloured toilet rolls 4 ur butt

exordium

(the beginning of anything)



finals are in a week &I've got a love-hate relationship with biology.