??? lmao

thanks @whoever commented on that one post about the zodiac killer for reminding me that I indeed have a blog

in retrospect, some of my posts are so cringe-worthy but I'm 100% real 0% fake plus I don't think anything was offensive so I'll probably just leave em all as it is


anyway, it's been a year..... I'm in sydney now, doing BSc Psych..... *shoves thoughts of student loans to the back of my mind* we made it

thaipusam '13

lolz....#tbt....miss you yin qin

1. i watch him cradle his cigarette like a lifeline
says he loses his breath sucking his stomach in

2. the calmest thing is to drown in tv static

3. when we were kids we'd tear leaves by the veins; grow bugs in glass jars

4. won't the canary sing a sweeter song out of its gilded cage?

5. i wanted to be cruel to everyone, all because you were cruel to me

6. i fear the day when i watch too many sunsets that they'll be reduced to nothing but orange and blue.

haha

life update:

• october sucked
• november sucked
• DECEMBER WOW (edit: december sucked too)
• I'm so hungry all the time
• crying into books in preparation for finals

gash

could they find your veins?

what's left of flesh is now hollow bone, messy thoughts.
life is so cruel
don't be afraid
don't
cry
it'll be over soon enough



(edit: RIP)

omg(lob)

late 1800s penguin

lawl

!!!!lyfe update:

• post-raya I get mone¥

• gr9 acts for urbanscapes this year + satellite show hah ha goodbye..... mone¥ ......

• I'm going to perth land of old ppl aka my land on monday till the 16th and then good vibes modest mouse ISAAC KISS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

• I never comb my hair yolo

• http://craftndraft.com/2013/08/09/ouch/ emotiions hahah ha hahah ha better than adam's tags I guess (btw if you're reading this I still have your socks)

?.dsfsijfJIW

do broken minds write better? I'd rather have a knife through my head than a frog in my throat
kiss me I want to become a prince but don't
touch
me

drugs

hereditary

I have my mother's heart
although it's missing some pieces you
  see they were stolen by boys (with chapped pink lips)
 who would always know what to say.


I have my father's eyes
 although they aren't as worn I've still seen
   kings being overthrown I've easily cried
          a river and a half
 I don't want to love for fear that I might explode.

SOUTH EAST

swim good

go down the road till it turns from colour to black and

white

white

white

out doing white lines

woke up in a room with tall white walls they told me they were going to keep me here cause I've lost my

mind but was it ever really mine?

WAKE UP

doge appreciation hour

momma and I were having breakfast round Jalan Telawi the other day and we saw two men who had one puppy in a bag plus two corgis in a bABY STROLLER WITH THEIR LITTLE PAWS OUT I WAS SO EXCITED I WANTED TO
PUNCH!!! A WALL!!!!!!!!!!!


I wore doc marts to markets @ jaya one but my socks were too short so I had..... callouses on bo.....th legs and they're infected.........n yea but sacrifice for fashion right hehh heh (it hurts to bathe)
Also, Finn had the same problem in the Potluck Princess episode, so I don't feel so bad! He feels that feel that I know, I know that feel. We bonded through dimensions.

metyrapone to erase bad memories?

“Metyrapone is a drug that significantly decreases the levels of cortisol, a stress hormone that is involved in memory recall,” explained lead author Marie-France Marin, a doctoral student.

Manipulating cortisol close to the time of forming new memories can decrease the negative emotions that may be associated with them, the researchers said.

Thirty-three men participated in the study, which involved learning a story composed of neutral and negative events. Three days later, they were divided into three groups – participants in the first group received a single dose of metyrapone and a second group received a double dose. The third group received a placebo. Group participants were then asked to remember the story. Then, in fours days after the medication had cleared from the body, individual memory performance was reevaluated.

“We found that the men in the group who received two doses of metyrapone were impaired when retrieving the negative events of the story, while they showed no impairment recalling the neutral parts of the story,” Marin said. “We were surprised that the decreased memory of negative information was still present once cortisol levels had returned to normal.”

put down the razorblade baby

 place your hands in mine instead (I'll grip them tight so you know they're there)

let the bottle slip through your fingers

spilled cyanide sticky

I'd walk through shattered glass still

don't swallow the pill

Wonderland's just a myth

I'll stay up to sing so you could fall asleep.

(a title hinting profanity towards A-levels)

(a sentence about exams.)

(a sentence about blur, and how dare they come to indonesia during exam month.)

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XaaX

we would've counted the stars in the sky but
the city lights have rendered them invisible so
you & I spent the friday night counting our devils instead.

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"I can feel my soul being scorched by baphomet's flames
&thought that if I downed another Hennessy, maybe I'd be able to vomit him out
but it couldn't be that easy, could it?"


"I'm fucked up", you tell me;
I touched your arm & felt you
smile in the dark.


if heaven is up there, then this is hell on earth.

there is no food in the fridge.

my love wears metal on her lips
&her heart on her wrist, somewhere
in between the crooked scars I trace while she sleeps;
I wonder if she dreams of me?